Mmm, life...

Mmm... life. I've been thinking a lot lately about a lot of different things. I wish I could just... stop time and think. I feel like I'm wasting time if I do that. It's sort of relaxing though.

Where am I going with my life? My grades are not going very well this semester. Well, not as well as last semester. At the rate I'm going, it appears as if I'll get a B+/A- in engineering, B+/A- in Calculus III, B+/A- in Chinese, and a C in Physics. Not the grades I wanted. I started to think of the reasons as to why my grades are worse this semester than last semester. The only thing that has changed is that I started to play World of Warcraft. I feel like it is an addiction and I need to stop... How could I leave all my friends that I convinced to play again.

My sleep habits are also worse this semester and I have a hard time getting up in the morning. It could be because it's been cold this semester, but I'm not sure. I think tomorrow I'm going to start working out again. Maybe that's what I'm missing.

I just don't feel good. I'm happy, I'm sad... It's like one or the other. I've been getting angry and sad over silly little things, some of them are really honestly stupid. I wish I could just be content and chill out.

I don't think anyone reads this, but it's nice to get some words typed out sometimes. :)

I started last semester being optimistic and ready to do some hard work and it paid off. Lately I've started to think negatively, and I know its not good, but I can't really help it. I worry about the future. I worry about things like... what if I don't like electrical engineering, what if I don't get a good job in the future, what if I'm not happy, will I ever find THAT someone, and various other things... Mostly I worry about the last thing, but I'm not going to talk about that on my blog. (yea, I know you thought you were going to get some juicy details) :P

I think I may stay away from WoW for a week and see how it goes. Maybe even stop my subscription for a month. I look at the time I spend on that damn game and it's way too much. I've spent 13 days playing on my main character. That's TOTAL TIME i've played on him. That's 312 hours since the end of Novemeber that I've spent on him. It's been about 150 days since I started, so thats about 1/11 of ALL my time was spent on my warcraft character. Thats an average of about 2 hours everyday. Please note that this DOES NOT include my many assortment of alt characters that i've wasted time on. I'm sure that it would bump my average up to 3 or 4 hours every day. Sigh... That's so sad. I should be doing something more productive, like studying, reading the news, working out, going out and meeting people.

I'm going to drastically cut my WoW time starting now. I WILL find other stuff to do. Maybe I'll join some clubs or pick up a sport or something. I need to grow up.

That felt really good. Maybe I'll pick up some online poker again and actually make some money. A lot more productive than playing WoW...

I'm probably going to fail this physics test tomorrow. If I do, I will probably end up dropping the class and taking it over the summer. I'm serious. This is the LAST time I make a retarded mistake like this again.

Time to continue what I worked towards last summer. A better Aaron, as cheesy as that sounds.

So much wasted time. So worthless. I remember why i left WoW the first time. I need like... a girlfriend or something, lol. Or some friends that like to do stuff that I like to do. Something a little more worthwhile to spend time with/on. Ya know what... I'll pick chess back up. This is kind of exciting. :P

This is really an awful time to do all this, I should be studying for my physics test tomorrow. I think I'm going to take a 3 hour nap and get up and study. We'll see how that goes.

Let's gooooo. :)